Apparently people are always surprised at how bad my depression is. My PDoc emailed my T (they're in the same clinic) and because he wanted to understand what my situation was better. He said I was engaging and even laughing. My T explained it to him, but my pdoc isn't the first one to react like that.

Is it so hard to believe that I've lived with depression long enough that I don't want to walk around moping? I just compartmentalize my depression. I still feel it, but at the same time, I can laugh at a joke even if the laughter is kind of surface level.

Does that make sense to anyone else?