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Originally Posted by Elsewhere
One of my Ts has commented on people who walk around with "a dark cloud of depression" over their heads...and said that I was not one of them. He also said that I don't really complain (not sure if that's moping exactly, but it made me think of it). I know for myself there is stuff I still have to take care of regardless of how I feel, so I focus on that a lot of the time. I also had to work for quite awhile feeling like absolute crap and got used to faking it day after day...it was exhausting, but I got used to acting like everything was "fine."
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This was true for me as well. I functioned extremely well in front of people and would go back to my office and just sit there with my head on my desk. I would go home and take care of the kids and then just crawl in bed and pull the covers over my head.
Even when I broke my arm and thought I was doing a good job of telling the hospital people that I was in great pain and needed help, I was apparently not acting appropriately. I was told I did not act like someone with a broken arm (apparently because I drove myself to the hospital and was conversing with them calmly). Then, despite me saying my pain was a level 8, and I was in significant pain, they did not offer anything for the pain. When the doctor finally showed up and was in disbelief that the nurses had not given me pain medication, the nurse shrugged and said, "she didn't act like it hurt." The doctor was yelling at her -- "it is completely broken! It hurts. You cannot expect everyone to react the same way to pain." She just shrugged again.