just saw my psychiatrist. he increased my haldol to 20mg a day. :/ at least he gave me refills on my ambien.

i asked him if any of his patients successfully got off medication. he said no. he said I especially cant get off meds because i always have symptoms. then he asked me if i ever seen the movie A Beautiful Mind. he said john nash had schizophrenia and was on meds. and THEN i said "but he stopped his medication in his older years". and he said he didnt know that.

luckily he said that me getting only 30 minutes of therapy a month isnt enough. he said i should be getting 2 times a month if not every week.