The highs of a vacation makes bipolar so much worst than normal...The bang of returning to reality is an unbearable pain, so much so that I don't know whether these trips of leisure is worth it anymore... having the relaxation of no worries, fear and resentment is such a joyful experience, but the aftermath seems to make the excitement not tolerable anymore. Every time I return from brilliant vacations, I feel like belong less anywhere. It just makes me realize that I'm here but I do not know where that is... Except I'm the queen of the ellipse, have been writing this way since I learnt how to make a dot... Maybe, subconsciously, I do now that life has another meaning....

Hi Guys, I was diagnosed with bipolar in 1999, after suffering from depression (ADHD,etc) since I was 4 years old... I only recently rejoined this group. I'm struggling at the moment with a condition I always kind of seemed to be able to "control". I met my husband 8 years ago, and I did tell him on our first date I'm bipolar (Hoping he would run away... hehe), but he fell in love with the manic me.. Unfortunately 8 years down the line my lows are much worst than my highs... I was always strong, having a brilliant career, and being in manic states that excelled me, as I was considered a dedicated workaholic. However, I find myself now in the position where I had to relocate countries, giving up an enormous promotion, etc, etc.. I need a short video to describe to my hubby what it means to live with a manic depressive, and the lows are part of my essence, he does not seem to "hear" me anymore, maybe it is because I am angry all the time. Maybe you have come across some helpful short videos. He is impatient, I'm actually thinking of recording myself and sending it to him, but I don't know whether he would take it seriously.. Please help???