I guess I shouldn't congratulate you on your good nights sleep..... 'tis not politically correct
But....sshhhhhh..... I've been doing the same a lot lately and it feels so good! Self destructive behaviours can be so alluring and nobody complains or gets angry apart from the doctors (if they rumble it)
And if we/I continue with these behaviours it shortens our lives... which in my case has to be good!!!
I hope you get some better replies, this is the Personality Disorder forum though......
love
Fuzzy
xo