I stopped taking meds. I felt that I'd rather feel miserable and gloomy all the time rather than feel nothing at all; not to mention the complete death of my libido.

But there are times when I think I should lean on them again. Especially when it comes to coping with each day's stress. I don't know which is the lesser of two evils, frankly.

Maybe you ought to look into another Psychiatrist with another approach. Different meds? Don't give up hope completely. Please.