Kimmy,
that sounds like a good idea, picking something more recent, and safer.
my experience has been picking ONE incident...my T had me chooose a memory, (so I picked a slide from my memory --- it was the day we found out my parents were dead --- the only sound I could hear was the tele ringing - and the feeling I felt was [acute aloneness. I was sitting under a table all alone], the thought I was thinking was [was it confusion] I was saying to myself 'what's going on????' my parents had been missing for days and I was only ten but I knew somethign was wrong.
so you pick
memory
thought
feeling
and for me EMDR integrated it all for me,
I was scared it'd open pandoras box and it didn't...it simply 'worked' on that memory. I ended feeling more connected, more whole. the grief was there, the loss of my parents more acute than before...but I wasn't cut off from myself about that particular memeory.
p.s. THEN I went on to EMDR on some abuse issues that happened in a subsequent foster home. Again, terrible fears ahead of time and I waited until I was ready.
I found that EMDR was the tool that really allowed me to release some stuff that up to then talk therapy hadn't.
SAY, all this talk....I think I'm going to get some more EMDR! seriously! maybe it'll work on my reemerging agoraphobia and OCD.
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