I think I knew he was right. I do need to go back to the hospital but I can't - I can't afford the time off at work, and I can't let people down. I pay half the bills, so if I don't have my half I just don't know what we would do, so I have no choice but to carry on going to work even though I can't deal with life at all right now. I feel like I'm going crazy in a way I never have before so it's freaking me out. I'm screwing my whole life up and I can't even help it. He's going to leave me isn't he? He spends all his time freaking out and worrying about me, it's so unfair. I can't breathe properly, I think I'm having a panic attack that's lasted over an hour. 7, 11 breathing isn't working and I don't know how else to calm myself down