What makes it worse I think is that in your head you are one person, but you cannot project that person outwardly, and you come across dumb, stupid, lame ete. That leads to frustration, which in turn only makes things worse. Maybe that was just me. You explained my situation perfectly. T calls it "flat".
you are feeling more stable. I think I'm "to" stable at least mood wise. This other crap is BS.

Justugh- The weight gain will level out?

I don't see him until the 28 of February I'm going to ask to see him monthly.

Is there any chance that the feeling of a lost personality is just that you aren't used to yourself being more stable, as opposed to really depressed or dealing with different levels of mania or psychosis? Yes it is but I don't think I can live like this long term.