Thanks for the replies. CANDC, I found your reminder that we are all human and deserving of respect really helpful and comforting. I do kind of treat myself as if I have no value if I don't produce, which is a horrible way to treat anyone. Really, after reading your post Monday night did a lot of good for me, and helped me to be kinder to myself.

Thunder, I wish that I could do that, but I need to live at home to save money. I'd like to get a different job, but every time I mention it my mom looks really sad, as if she is wondering if working for her isn't good enough for me. I will graduate with my masters in May, so I'll be free then. Not able to find a better paying job, mind you, because my degree can only help me get into med school. But I will be able to be on my own again.

Vital, thanks so much for the link. I was really impressed by your theory and method. I will try snapping! I definitely feel powerless, like I have zero influence over the course of my life. I've been trying to find a way to give myself a semblance of control for a long time.