Hi ashleyrose

Thanks for the intro and welcome to PC!. I am glad that you decided to join. We have numerous forums to choose from and your first 5 posts will take a little while to appear as they are being moderated. The anxiety forum would be another place to post. I also have anxiety and I have found a few things that help me as I have trouble getting to sleep as that is when my anxiety seems to be the worst.

I read books on meditation like...Wherever You Go There You Are by Jon Kabat-Zinn. I am not sure if the meditation you are speaking of that does not work for you is the same thing.

Also I like to drink hot calming tea. I like to read daily devotionals or just get my mind into something that takes up my entire thinking like puzzles or games. Do you have anything that are great distractions?

Have you tried any medications?

I'm sorry that you lost your job and have had such a hard time. Keep coming back and share so others can be supportive and offer more ideas. The very thing that you say doesn't help you does help me but are we speaking about reading books on meditation or are you trying to just be quiet in your mind? I don't think I helped but maybe these are two different methods.