This week I got rejected. And felt the rejection.

Now I'm not sure if I'm 'upset' of who rejected me or of being rejected. It's the first time I got rejected and feel it, it bothered me.

Is it because I liked this person or because I finally started caring a bit about stuff?
I have no clue.
I'm not sure and I don't know how to figure it out???

But it obviously put my depression and suicidal thoughts into a worse place then it was. It went from very bad to terrible.