Things are not going well for me the last couple of days. I can sleep for 17 hours in a day. then I'll wake up really early and can't sleep. I'm having very vivid visions of killing myself. I'm safe right now. I'm at my parents. I'm sick of being sick. I don't think the meds i'm on are working right. I have too many ups and downs and too many times I have suicide thoughts. I don't really know what i'm after by posting this. I just needed to share. I see my doc at 3 today. It's 11 now. I wonder what he'll do.