Headache again. I feel like I'm getting a cold. My nose was running a waterfall earlier. I'm very depressed and wondering what's the point in even checking in to say how I'm feeling, when it will not even change anything. It's -6 degrees outside (not windchill, actual temp) and there is wind because I hear the wind chimes on the porch. I'm so glad now that me & Mom hung plastic and blankets up over my bedroom window, though it's not the most attractive thing to look at every day. But still, this house is so old and drafty, even with blankets it's easy to get cold. I'm also having really strong desire to eat things, which is typical when I'm depressed - it's the reason I'm 300 pounds. I'm trying to suppress these cravings, because I don't want to gain anymore weight. I want to be able to go out in public when spring comes. I suppose it helps that there are no snacks in the house. I feel very hopeless, missing spring and summer when the weather was good and before all this other **** happened. It's funny, I think about the past, back then I felt that life was so awful, but now that I am where I am, I think of how good I had it then. It can always get worse. There's always room for things to get worse.