My family is pressuring me to start the lithium and not give up. I have to admit i have been decreasing the AD and haven't noticed a diff yet - actually I have been in a REALLY good mood - like feeling this way and don't want to not feel 'up' -confused. Debating. Don't want to end up suicidal again or worse... but don't want to be a walking pharmacy, not feel anything - including my 'ups'