I was diagnosed with BP mixed last spring during a 10 day hospitalization, after going off the rails for about a year. I finally got help. Then, around the same time I became kinda obsessed about my weight. The mood stabilizers seemed to kill my appetite, or it was a coincidence, I'm not sure now, but either way I stopped eating.

I barely ate all summer, when I did eat it was mostly at night as a dinner. Although I rarely eat with my family anymore. (I have three kids).

Since the summer I've tried eating better/eating more but its not really working. I finally broke down and spoke to my primary doctor about the lbs Id lost and how I lost it (ie. not eating).

Now, I'm not sure if I'm still in the disordered eating stages or if its an ED. I'm still 20lbs overweight but still losing weight due to still struggling to eat and when I do eat, eat enough.

I know I need help and I'm going to finally really talk to my therapist about it. (she's tiptoed around the weightloss before but I've quickly pushed her off the topic) But, I need some support. and help.