(((((((Little Jay)))))))

Tell your team everything, there is a good chance that they won't admit you without trying intensive support first. You are doing really well, because despite the thoughts and the urges you are here and reaching out, that proves you have more strength than you realize.

Depression can come in many guises as can panic and anxiety, but do voice your concerns to your medical team, doctors can only go on what we tell them and the more they know the more likely they are to figure out what is going on.

Take care, keep posting, stay safe and hold on to your dreams, you have a good future ahead of you, this is just a minor hiccup.