I went to therapy today and everything was fine until the subject of me finding a friend came up.

I live in a small town and I feel like I don't fit in anywhere. While at the same time I put myself out there in the hopes of finding a real friendship.

I put on a mask when on the inside I feel like I could cry at any moment. I turn on a switch to block the pain. The pain that feels unbearable at times I imagine the unthinkable.

I feel like I can't let out my sorrow in therapy completely. I feel like my therapist is my last hope for help and yet I'm afraid of leaning too heavily on her.

Crying.....

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