Dear Mittens, You're not in the dark place alone. We're all here with you. Don't give up. I don't think we would have to go through all this pain and suffering if someone greater than ourselves didn't think we could handle it. Our lives have meaning, even if it's just to come here and help each other get through it. Suicide is not the answer. I tried twice and have regretted betraying myself like that. Death is too permanent. You cant go back and change your mind. Please take it from someone who has been at death's door twice by her own hand, it's not something you want any part of. There is nothing good in it!!!!! It's darker than any depression you'll ever go through. I'm still depressed, anxious, sad, lonely, etc...struggling through each day so don't think I don't know how you feel right now. I'm still in the pit. I'm just learning how to live there. I'll take my meds, and do what I have to do to survive. It can be done. We're all doing it and every now and then something makes you laugh and gives you a little light and fresh air. Finish the race with us!! (Have your meds checked/changed/talk to those you love or to professionals/ fight for your life because it is a fight and I'm saying your worth it!!!.