Just needed to talk.

There was someone in another mental health forum, a long long time ago, that I really hit it off with. She was awesome, smart, and a very good, kind friend.

Unfortunately, that forum prohibited exchanging email addresses, and I drifted away (lots of crazy mental health stuff, went to grad school, graduated and had to find a job, took a break from therapy so that I could stabilize myself, etc.)

So, I've been curious about her. I have some old posts printed out from her that have been really helpful to me. I miss her a lot, and I regularly check the old forum (I don't have an account there anymore, but I pop in and read) to see if she's turned up. She was on the verge of changing her name there before though, so it's possible I don't recognize her.

I thought to google her old screen-name and the name of the forum tonight, and she has a profile HERE! At PsychCentral! OMG! I just about died with joy and happiness and delight and... the profile is >10 years old (I told you, this is from a LONG time ago.)

It's still here, but there have been no posts for 10 years. And there were <100 posts from when she was active. I sent a PM anyway... hoping that *maybe* if the universe is smiling on me today, it will trigger an email to an account that she is still using, and she'll see it. Maybe... *sigh*.

But, I'm not hopeful. And, I can't find her in any other google searches. And, I'm sad. A little heartbroken. I don't even know if she'll want to talk to me, or if she'll remember me. But I so would love to get back in touch, find out how her life has gone, find out if she had any luck with the potentially-awesome therapist she had started seeing way back then, and catch up.

There's nothing anyone can do. I was stupid for drifting away. I regret it. I guess just... if you can... send some positive energy into the universe for me that the PM gets through, and that she can still access her account to reply?

*Thanks*