Hey everyone,

First I guess I am sorry I post so much. For the next couple of weeks I have no therapist and have been without one for a month. So this forum is currently my support and therapy in a way. Happy to have found it. Anyway...getting to the point now.

I'm a person who is very easily triggered by many objects and words. I've been like this for a long time. Triggers often evoke very strong emotions for me and many times I can't get a grip on them. I really hate triggers and wish they did not exist at all.

I am unable to:
•use my phone or IPad, log into Facebook, or see a certain shirt/object without being reminded of my ex. I instantly become upset and often spiral into negative/nostalgic thinking. The worst part is she doesn't give a **** about me (I am unsure she did for most of the relationship even) and actually told me that she was glad we broke up because her life is better, etc.
•hear a door slam or be around drugs without thinking of bad times from 8 years ago when my brother heavily used drugs and growing up in my house was chaos
•hear the word "star" or see stars without thinking of my ex because that was her name
•hear a song about love because I instantly become sour about it and reinforce my belief that love isn't worth it and most likely doesn't exist (at least not for me)
•be around mutual friends of my ex (clearly it makes me think of her, jealous they still have contact, and pissed/upset about the terribly way it ended...she broke up with me over Facebook with a "**** you" and months later said she was over me and with someone new...how do you go with someone new less than two months after breaking up?!)

Ugh. So I know like all these are about my ex. But I'm having a hard time because of all these triggers. And I hate she's not suffering like me and probably never was. That makes it all much worse.

How do I deal with the triggers? Can I get rid of them? Or can I at least maybe make it so I quit delving into negativity when one hits? Help please. I feel this is one thing I can't get under control. Ugh.



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