Honestly......I am exhausted, constantly! My parents have been staying and the last 2 days have been sending me over the edge into poor coping strategies.

I haven't seen my therapist now for 3 weeks, and not sure I do want to see him again.......as well as really wish I could go and get all the '****' out of my head and heart and body...............

Gosh I need a holiday...........or to escape this life. I am dreaming of a white sand beach, palm trees bent over my lounger providing shade while I read peacefully, then run down the beach into the azure water and swim, float or snorkel. Maybe go for a sail and swim off the boat.......or go for long walks into tropical forests to stunning waterfalls and swim beneath them.......sigh. Dreams, dreams are free......................................

(yeah, honestly I am tired and feeling in need of care)