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i can only offer you my love and support sweetie.i dont know where thewse thoughtsarecoming from, maybe you should talk to your t about them. it may be a part of your illness at the moment.
tell your boyfriend you would like to spend more time with him, get yourselves out of the house even if it's just for a walk. your insecurities are at the surface, you need to sort this out.

love you, e.mom xoxoxoox