I just returned from therapy and should probably be posting this in my journal but I have got my dander up!

I had a session on Sunday and one today so only one day in between. Sunday's session was precious. We did some inner child work and talked about our relationship. I was able to tell him that losing connection between me and him makes me lose connection to myself. I told him that I felt the relationship getting closer and wanted it to work for me.

Today I found I didn't feel like going back. During session, we did not agree on anything. I talked about an issue with one of my chldren and then talked about my marriage and some problems I perceive in my marital relationship. I found myself totally annoyed at him over and over again. By the time he said "time's up," I said "good." He said, "We were not on the same side at all today." I just said, "No." Then I just left.

On the way home I was fuming. However, I came to think that maybe I pushed him away because he's getting too close. Then again, I thought maybe I'm thinking that because it's a pattern for me to try to fix everything as if I was the one who broke it. I am so freaking confused right now. I don't feel remotely close to T right now and it doesn't really bother me. But last week when I felt distant I had to call him.

What gives?

Arghhhhhhh