Shaymus, I wait for the other shoe to drop because it has so often. My head is wired that bad things will happen. However, thinking like that doesn't help us. If bad things happen then we can deal with them when it occurs but putting the energy into watching our backs and being anxious doesn't make much sense if we can't control the outcome? So, you can tell that I am working on this too. Just try to let your mind be positive and if it's negative you will have more energy to deal with it. By the way, cancer is not an immediate death sentence. I have friends and a son who survived so smile and take litttle baby steps. PEACE