lately i have been putting up with mockeries, ridicules and verbal abuses from people in my neighborhood, town, this has been ongoing for months or maybe years, making me very paranoid, emotionally snappy, and certainly intensified the suicidal murderous thoughts in my mind.

I tried to call the helpline, but it seems like they want me institutionalized, which will worsen things, this is driving me into a corner. I wish someone would read or attempt to understand what im going through and reach out to me.
Its like living in a place filled with predatory creatures disguised as human beings