I...can't afford to...I'm dirt poor...

I'm honestly not shooting everything you suggest down right away....you're giving great advice and I appreciate it, really I do. Its just that I'm really at a loss here....and I've had a really...REALLY bad couple of days.... I'm just not feeling very optimistic or enthusiastic right now..I apologize if I'm frustrating you....I never mean to be frustrating to anybody...I really don't...

I really need rest, but can't calm my mind enough to do so. I'm too upset...Maybe I'll just do some "imagine a happy place" type deals and use that to relax enough to get sleeping...