Thanks to all for your comments. Confessional-I do not always write a final reply to all my posts, I guess I should be more mindful to do that and be sure that I thank folks for their replies. I also do post threads that sound more like rants, I do apologize for that.

I guess I am just such a miserable person at times, thankfully not every minute of every day. It is certainly not anyone's fault here on this site and no one here is responsible for my happiness and well being. I do understand the limitations of a support site. Sometimes I just get desperate to be understood and empathized with. I certainly wish this were not the case and I could find some way to be more content with myself and life.

I always take any advice with a grain a salt, would never knowingly go forward with something that would be detrimental to my health.

Apologies, I certainly don't intend to point fingers and blame anyone for my inability to cope.