i am sorry that you are experiencing so much anxiety. it seems she really still cares about you that she came back so that you didnt have to be alone. unfortunately this doesnt do much for you in the long run. as a woman, i do not imagine that her insides match her outsides. i imagine this was a very difficult decision for her. when a partner does not get a job, and it is a womans sole responsibility to support the family for so long, she becomes resentful. i imagine she finally reached her breaking point. and then stating that you could get one in a few days is hurtful because if it was that easy, what prevented getting a job all along? again, this is unfortunate, but it seems that you have learned a lot from this experience. take care.