I have maths anxiety, too. Last time around... I carved out an academic path for myself that involved dodging the math over here and dodging the math over there... I've sort of stumbled upon the opportunity to start over. So I've decided to face my fears. I've discovered that my anxiety is mostly about lack of confidence in my ability. And that that anxiety is well-founded since testing reveals that there are grade 7 and 8 skills that I haven't mastered, yet. In other words, the source of my anxiety is that I'm not particularly good at maths. And then I get myself into this negative space about that and I feel fearful of other people yelling at me / judging me harshly / expecting me to do things that I can't when it comes to maths.

There are lots of good online resources, now. IXL is a subscription website that I found useful last summer. Kahn Academy is pretty good and there are small-ish youtube videos that will walk you through something. I find that learning from online sources helps alleviate the maths anxiety since I can go as slow as I need to and I don't have another person feeling impatient with me. Kahn Academy maths is helpful because it will ask you some questions and give you a dx as to what skills you need to work on so you really can start at the right level.

I don't know what happened with my maths education (of lack of it). I was told I couldn't really do chemistry or physics at university since I didn't have the maths... But I'm working on my second physics course now and I got through general chemistry (with kenetics equations, ph equations, acidity constants, etc) with B range grades. I have work to do on the maths to pull things up to the A range grades that I'm used to (that I need for what I want to go on to study), but I really do think I'm making progress...

Maths is hard because it is very cumulative with one thing building on another thing. Then the lecturers work through problems in class and if you have a hole in your knowledge you can't figure out how they got from that point to the next point. Algebraic substitutions get me. But the tutors are great for laying it all out making the steps explicit. Physics is actually kinda fun. Demoralising at times when I realise that there are any number of 7 year olds who are more competent at it than me... But humbling... And it feels pretty great when you grasp the obviousness of it all...

Anyway... Perhaps you will learn to like it.