I really like that jar idea, Newtus! I wish I had something like that, haha. Need some encouragement right about now...

I feel like I'm losing everything good about myself. I feel like my own brother thinks I'm stupid and can barely stand my company. Everyone looks at me and pities me. They don't see what I used to be, or what I could be. All they see is what is, and what is is failure.

My t told me that I need to stop making assumptions about how people feel about me. But I can't very well ask my brother if he really thinks I'm a loser because I know he's nice enough to lie. Plus it would be awkward. I think I know how people feel about me.

I just feel like I'm an idiot with no talents.