Congrats for getting to your daughters competition ! Please pat yourself on the back for me !!!! Travelling, staying a motel on top of it all - way to go !!!!!!!!! From someone who suffered with agoraphobia and severe panic attacks, now being panic free for 17 years, you really really did make progress !!!!!!!!!! Give yourself credit - I used to say "I lived to tell about it - therefore it had to be progress".

As for the dizzies - been there too ! Once I learned proper diaphragmatic breathing, it stopped. When the ole fight or flight response kicks in - dizziness is very common. A GREAT book that I would never have made it without - "Anxiety, Phobias and Panic - Taking Charge and Conquering Fear" by Reneau Z. Peurifoy. I highly recommend it !

Being really tired after an outing is very common also. Your body probably was on high alert - as well as you being "tensed up", and doing all those things you did that you hadnt been doing - from my personal experience, I would have had a "let down" period - and my favorite place was under the covers !

You stated you are back where you started - nope - that really doesnt happen. You learned things that weekend - even if you dont recognize it yet. We never go back to "where we were" - we do, we accomplish, we survive...that is progress ! Keep on keepin on !!!!!!!!!!!!!