Everything you are saying makes so much sense. I think I just have a fear that he won't respond. Like I said earlier this is not like him, he is normally very responsive and I know since last month he is under a ton of pressure, the business is his dream and his priority and he needed investors that he was not able to keep. Again I know that means I shouldn't be ignored. Honestly I was putting alot of pressure on him about spending time together and he was stressed, but I still don't feel like it is my fault. He needed to give a little more.

You're right I am constantly checking my phone, and this is alot of anxiety, I'm in an unclear state right now. I will send him an email at 11pm and hopefully he will respond. If he wanted it over why can't he just say that through text, or when we spoke, why cant he just say stop calling me. I think he feels like he can't deal with me and the company at the same time and that makes me sad.