After running out of my Abilify and Effexor a couple of days ago...I've been an emotional mess....I went out tonight and got my refills....but....what's done is done...and now I'm so lonely...so bored...and my thoughts keep going to dark places.....I try and keep on top of them...but it's exhausting work...and despite several hours' sleep this afternoon, I'm dead tired....

No appetite either...only a couple fried chicken drumsticks have passed my lips since last night....and several cans of diet coke....I'm fine though...I feel just fine. I'm losing weight...25 lbs in the last two months...so I must be doing something right...

Oh, and my resolution for a more positive outlook for this year? It's barely been 10 days and already I've blown it....well, back to the drawing board I guess.