Like they want you there, but for what? What else other than my company, not to do banter and enjoying my time here, but making me feel like crap. I know you guys suck as friends at times a lot, but there aren't many options for me. Then in situations where there are girls I like, God, I'm wrecked. I'm not passive, I'm so sick of being associated with that when I didn't want to be and make it very clear I'm not. I feel like I don't get my voice here and continuously ridiculed I fear every relationship they all leave, in which I accepted things come and go, but not like after day one. It's like I've gotten to the point everyone is like this, either you are popular and have something going for you or you are nothing midas well kill yourself or something bad happens to you. Quoting how others treat me and say at times.