Thanks for the empathy, it's nice to have! I'm calmer now. I really just don't want to waste energy on this since I am pretty sure I don't want it. I am going through the motions because it seems like it would be 'good for me.' It's interview practice and an opportunity to stick up for myself when dealing with a difficult person.

I agreed to go in next week at a time that suits me. He confirmed, but neglected to send me the agenda or tell me who I will be speaking with. I am not even sure what we're doing - is this an interview or a meeting to talk about my proposal? He's going to get another email.

My friend has another small contract project for me. I'll be doing that next week, the day before the interview.

I also feel like some people have a much more solid sense of what's right/appropriate with these kinds of situations than I do. It seems like 95% of men are just born with some kind of sense. I've seen my boyfriend just decide one morning that he didn't like the temp to perm job he had (for good reason - they weren't nice to him), so he just called in and quit. I could never do that! But, really, it was *good* to quit. He had money in the bank, an in demand skill set - why stay and be abused?

Insides changing with the wind is an interesting description. Is it a kind of wavering of should I do this or should I do that? Where you are just not sure which you should do and sometimes feel more strongly towards one than the other? Or do you mean something else?

I'm sorry that you don't have a more significant role with this project (yet). And I think you are right that the other woman is just busy -- this could be her first week back from vacation, and it can be crazy trying to catch up. Waiting is hard!!