Been trying not to let it get to me. But to no avail most of the time, the very best i can do is not to carry out those actions, yet deep down i am being drilled into this cesspool of a reality which drive me into a corner time after time again.
I felt being treated like a joke and the violent urge to make a strong statement is overwhelming. Their relentless ridicule, sarcasm, condescending smirks, laughter, slanderous behavior always allow them to get away time after time. I can only do whatever it takes to filter everything out.

Will try to take ur advice into mind. No idea what will help or make me feel better anyway.