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Originally Posted by leilaniana
Is it normal not to be able to remember most of your childhood? I'm 35 years old and have very few actual memories from when I was younger. I have tons of pictures that I can look at, but none actually bring to mind a concrete memory.
In general, my memory is really bad. I can watch movies, then watch them again several months later and not remember how they went. I can learn something about my health, then forget about it a couple of years later. I don't forget everything, but select things I guess.
The few memories I have that aren't linked to photographs are little things - the Christmas tree on top of a bank building we drove by often, driving down roads that had red clay dirt alongside, and a random library room in my elementary school.
I had bad migraines starting at the age of 10, but other than that, nothing traumatic or abusive happened to me. I'm seeing a counselor and am interested in trying to access these memories, but maybe there's a reason I don't remember it all?
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I wonder the same thing. My memory up until age 7 or 8 is very sketchy. From learning all the trauma that is caused by certain abuses, it certainly makes me very concerned that something terrible happened to me. I've never had any flashbacks, every.
Nothing obviously sexual happened to me as a child that I am aware of but my dad was rather inappropriate towards me when I became a teenager and would dress nice to go out or on a date. It was just the way he looked at me and things he said. Nothing whatsoever more than that. It does make me suspicious, but if it happened when I was young, it does not seem like it would have stopped.
I've never written this anywhere, never ever. I have thought this many times though.
Just wanted to let you know that I also experience this. I see tons of photographs from my early childhood, and yet no memory to go along with it. To me that is disturbing. I do have a few random memories like when I fell out of a tree and once when I got in serious trouble with my dad. I think he gave me a beating with a belt, I know I was terrified of him when that happened. I really did not understand at the time that I had done anything wrong. He probably overreacted as per usual. Also a memory of a scary car wreck with my mom, I vaguely remember crying a lot when that happened.
Never the less, I ended up with something like a depersonalization disorder as a teenager and lots of emotional problems. Way later ended up with symptoms of borderline personality. Those are mostly gone now, but I have never been great at handling personal relationships or responsibilities.
Sorry for the lengthy reply
