I worked many years at the same place, while going to night school. Once I got my diploma, since there where no advanced opportunities at that job, I left and tried other places but I never really felt stable, never really had the same advantages or security. I liked working in the community field but there is no job security and the salary's are often lower than the private or public sector..Anyways, after a long sick leave, I went back to school to get another diploma in something less stressfull, less demanding where I was told steady jobs would be available. Took me a while but I found a job, I'm only a replacement staff, but one day eventually I may have a permanent full time position. I have some kind of stability and security and that helps...support from my family, my PDOC, therapy, friends. Some days are hard at work because when I'm feeling well, I find it boring there is no place for initiate and creativity or leadership..I feel like an ant working on a chain..other days when I'm not feeling well..this is good for me..cause I do the same thing all the time for a week than change to another work plan...often I ask myself why I'm there and tell myself I could do better than this..It's hard, My motto now is go to work, take you're pay, shut you're mouth, don't get involved more than you half too....at home I dream up all the wacky and fun stuff I could be doing..some day who knows.