Jacq, my wonderful friend ... talk to me. I want to hear from you, you know I'm here for you whenever you need it, right?
I'm sorry you're not 'okay' at this moment, but I don't see anything wrong with being as attached as you are. It hurts like hell, but try to remember all the good times ... I know you've had a lot of them. She helped you a lot when you needed it. Maybe you still do. We all do.
(((((((((((((((Jacq)))))))))))))))) Give me a holler okay? I'd love to be able to communicate with you.