Thread: Am I broken?
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Old Jan 10, 2015, 12:13 PM
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As opposed to the delusions that a person is a success? I understand that the perception of failure and success is all highly personal. I've met complete wastes of skin that thought they were king of the world.

Being a 'failure' is completely in my own perception of myself. I understand that. However, I like the way I think. I have no desire to reset my train tracks and go a different route with my way of thinking. That would mean basically saying to myself, "Everything that you are is wrong... be someone else if you want to be happy."

If that's the case.. then why bother? I want to be happy as the person that I am now. I want to achieve something AS I AM. I don't want to go about rearranging myself again, I've done that all too many times over the years and I'm through with it. This is me, and I'm sticking to it. I can't bring myself to believe that the only recourse would be to redefine myself. I'm too jaded for that anyways. If that's my only option, then I'm done.
Given your outlook, which is a perfectly valid one, maybe the goal is total self acceptance. Totally accepting your self as you are in this moment. Whether that means success or failure, like you say, is up to you in how you define success and failure. I don't know how much happiness that strategy brings but I can tell you it brings much contentment and inner peace. Only comparing yourself to the self you want to be or not be and F#$#@ everyone else is very freeing.
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