One of my biggest problems, or facts, is my very..painfully..incredibly low self-esteem. I, from the moment I learned that there's stupidity and intelligence, thought of me as an utterly stupid human being. Whatever I do, doesn't impress, no matter how I do it.

My mom tells me that I am smart, but then I say to her: "Do you have any proof?" She then says: "Not for the moment", then all I know is that I'm depressed and stressed out afterwards.

Other than intelligence, I have a strong belief, or an absolute knowledge of a very confirmed fact (by me) that I am not good-looking, I seriously know that I am an ugly creature with a big nose, not a great hair, big lips, and much more disfiguring features. And then all I hear from my parents is that I am good looking, or handsome. Again, do they have any proof? Like an actual statement from someone outside the family (and I mean strangers) that I am good-looking? Or smart even? No, none whatsoever. I am quite aware of my slow thinking brain, I can't solve riddles that easily, or mathematic problems, and this is just an implication, or evidence, as I like to call it, that I am indeed dumb.

I just don't see why the world needs me, is all.