Thread: Am I broken?
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Old Jan 10, 2015, 01:23 PM
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I am confused by your statements then-

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Being a 'failure' is completely in my own perception of myself. I understand that. However, I like the way I think. I have no desire to reset my train tracks and go a different route with my way of thinking. That would mean basically saying to myself, "Everything that you are is wrong... be someone else if you want to be happy."
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I want to be happy as the person that I am now. I want to achieve something AS I AM. I don't want to go about rearranging myself again,
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This is me, and I'm sticking to it. I can't bring myself to believe that the only recourse would be to redefine myself.
Do you want to change how you think, feel, and act, or don't you?

I am suggesting that you start at a place of total acceptance of how you are right now in this moment with brutal honesty and go from there. Then decide who and how you want to be based on what you truly want for yourself and not what society or other people say you should be. Total self acceptance does not mean an unwillingness to change it means facing reality and deciding what you want to change. I guess you could say changing means being someone else but I see it as being a better you.
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