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Originally Posted by SnakeCharmer
If you live in Ohio, as you indicate, your chosen path of no belief might seem odd to other people. There's a lot of religion there. But I guarantee you there are other parts of the country where belonging to a church or having religious beliefs are of little to no importance in whether or not a person is accepted by others. There are no public prayers and when people run for office, their religion or lack thereof, is not mentioned. Nobody has asked me about my religion or beliefs in years. Decades. Nobody cares. Yes, there are highly religious people around, but religion doesn't run the show.
From reading your posts, Yis, I've gotten the impression that you're on the young side. Maybe when you're older and finished your education and gotten out on your own, you can do some traveling and find a place to live that's more accepting and conducive to what you need. It's a big wide world out there. It's okay to leave Ohio behind if that's what you need. Or to stay, if that's what you want, and just be yourself. I wish you the best.
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My whole life is odd in ohio, people don't want you if you don't believe in something, having babies at 19 and getting married. It's like you have to drink and party make a lot of poor decisions go to jail and people think that's normal, but I guess it's not for me and so people are super critical with me.
I don't mean young people who do those things and people I'm around family and family friends I can't get away from it 24/7.
I am young, and I'm not in school. I graduated high school a long time ago for me at least. People think I'm in high school, when I should be a grad in college at least where I live. It's just that poverty has forced me in not to do what I want. It's not my poverty it's my parents financial suicide from years ago that put me here. I can't move out, I can't afford it, I can't travel or do anything. I'm always paying for all the bills that aren't my bills. Like I get how parents can let you pay rent and stuff and I lived on my own once and they wouldn't let me have a job and made me starve. I told them, I need money for food and I'm going to work here. I'm not a student, but I'm young and in need of a job and willing to work hard, but sadly I wasn't a student and they thought if I'm not paying myself out of debt in college I'm not worth bothering to talk to. So many days I've been starving myself, just to conserve food. I still do it at my parents though a lot, I try to eat as little as possible, and so I can afford the things that will help me make more money to leave, but it's almost like a hopeless cause. I just don't know what to believe now. I mean your comment is all I'm too well aware of, but I'm unable to do it. I pay for things that aren't my problem, like cable and things I don't even use after my mom went to a casino or got food with me. My parents aren't bad people, and my mom is the financially irresponsible one. I don't have friends or a support system, I have a neurological condition that's getting worse, I doubt it is stiff person syndrome gait even though I fit a lot of the criteria. That I can't afford to have basic needs at times other than food, water and heat. So if I want to get medical help I have to sacrifice food or something.
My point is, I have the biggest pet peeve against people who seem condescending even if they don't intend or were coming off as that. It just feels like, when you say, "maybe when you are older." I don't need that talk, I'm living the now, and knowing that I'm already there and have no time to look at the later of when I'm older, because I don't know how much time I have left. I don't really have anything to offer in my life except time and that's all I got anymore.