I cannot relate to your situation, Love&Toil, except perhaps to the part about being 10 years older & feeling like you can't do as much. Time certainly does take it's toll on us. And sometimes we don't even realize that it has until we're called upon to do something difficult we haven't had to do in a number of years. Then, suddenly, we're thrown up against the realization of what time has stolen from us. Hopefully some other PC members will be able to address your concerns more directly. I wish you the best as you struggle through this difficult time.