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Old Jan 10, 2015, 09:43 PM
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Originally Posted by Supanova View Post
My thoughts can be very loud. My T refers to them as voices but NOT hallucinations. Sometimes thoughts can be awfully loud, demanding and hurtful, but they are not hallucinations. I get many many intrusive thoughts and images, again not hallucinations, just loud thoughts.

I feel for those with hallucinations. While I have seen and heard things at times my docs say it is nothing to worry about and normal for those even without mental illness.
So then believing that God is telling you to do things would just be part of the delusion? I thought God was telling me to do not only somewhat normal things like praying out loud for random people but also telling me to cast out demons, calling out my name, and getting into the ocean--fully clothed, dangerously high tide and in the evening. And I listened to these things and, at the time would have probably listened if I had been told to fly. I thought they were hallucinations until the doctor in the hospital asked that question. What you said makes sense. Maybe I will just ask my pdoc. I am back to seeing the same pdoc I told I heard voices. I also would see Jesus coming to me but it wasn't like Jesus in the form of an actual man, it was an artistic Jesus, like he was descending from the clouds. That I saw with my eyes but I have often wondered if that too was part of my delusions. And, sometimes I still wonder if it were real.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now

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Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
Thanks for this!
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