Suraya, i'm sorry to hear what happened in session. It is possible that one or both of you were having an off session. I think that it makes total sense why what she said would bother you - especially with having abandonment issues. She makes a valid point about if she isn't helping you - but the way its worded in your text makes it seem like it was out of frustration vs. intent to "get rid of you". I suggest you talk to her if you can. Address the abandonment fears, and also maybe how you can't explain why you feel how you do. At one point my T had to pull out a feelings chart with me because I just can't place them. Perhaps this would be a good idea to carry with you to your own session.