So here is my update.. I've conquered my schizophrenia. I realized that it is my mind, and to cure myself all I needed to do was grow some balls and command my mind.. Had to take control. The voices listen to me now and I make them silent, and they only talk when i focus onto them to talk. My old hallucinations are no longer just hallucinations but actual images I can make others see and experience. I call it sorcery. I was a sorcerer long before I was diagnosed with sz. My magic they called hallucinations but the trick is to call them real, and once you name them s being real and other can see then they become that. Welcome to my world. I do not indulge in paranoia anymore either. I am not afraid of the old torments and tortures i used to endure. I had a while ago my voices and beings try to re-conjure the states of hell i was in and use my fear against me. I said bring it on biitches and let them try. See they can not anymore hurt me, though they could at one time. I can control my mind and my power and it is not their but mine.. For awhile they had almost total control of all the power I had gained in my life as a sorcerer, and that i plenty, but not anymore. They do not even really try. I get some of my old thoughts that would brig about psychosis and I counter act them with a positive thought and state my command that this thought (bad one) is not inactive and does not manifest. I counter spell them and say that condition lessens more and more until it vanishes. See the illness was in my mind, and to overcome it all you need to do is develop solutions, building new pathways instead of pursuing the old troublesome ways. Building and remaking old pathways is the key. So overall I doing quite well. I started my own business and in a few months will have money rolling in, and I just met a new girlfriend who seems like she was made just for me in every way. She is beautiful, and has all the same beliefs and interests as myself, and she has all the right sweet, 'candy-like', words and actions to boot! I am quite happy.