I know but for me the worst answer will be much better than no answer. I just can't accept this silence and I can't explain what is so difficult to answer that she has a serious bf or she doesn't remember me any more or anything else. actually i desperately need this answer so i can go ahead and forger her. Now i'm wondering what is in her head i am completely sure she remembers and maybe she is angry because i didn't do anything so many years like a coward but i really had a reason that i used to hide and i'm still hiding.