You said that you tried writing it down, but what did you do with it? Did you show it to your therapist? I have always had a lot of difficulty talking in therapy and would just sit there not being able to say what I needed to say. I think sometimes it was because I didn't feel comfortable with or trust the therapist I was seeing, but I had the same problem even after finding a therapist who was/is good for me. This one has been much more aggressive about asking me questions and getting me to talk (right from the beginning), which was something I needed. But there were still things I didn't talk about. A couple of times I after going to sessions where I just sat there and didn't talk, I tried writing my therapist a note and taking the note with me the next time I went to therapy. That worked very well, as then he knew what questions to ask me and I could talk about what I had written. Now he has given me his e-mail address, which is probably about the best thing that could have happened for me. Even though he isn't all that good at answering my email and I have to wait until I go to therapy to talk about it, at least I have a way to bring up topics that I couldn't otherwise. Sometimes I still go to therapy and am unable to talk and he tells me to pretend that I am sitting at the computer writing instead.

<font color=purple>"You may be disappointed if you fail, but you are doomed if you don't try."</font color=purple>